Date : Saturday, April 3, 2010
Time : 11:14 AM
Title : Very Sad ....

Today , i felt very sad
Erm
I keep thinking
People keep telling me i am very smelly
People told me that i am fat
People told me that i cant pronounce words properly
It nvr hurted me more than anythings

Sometime people keep asking me y i keep laughing
I reply to them
That i like laughing
Atually i was just lieing
I laugh because i can make me a better life
I laugh so that i can make new friends

Outside of me were that i am big and i am a laughing boy ...
But inside me
I just a small me
I keep thinking is there a happy ending
After seeing so much sadness in my family
I went throught lot of things that people nvr experince before
Sometimes i feel like crying
But i cant cry it out
Sometimes i need people for help
But i keep feeling that they are far apart of me
What am i going to do ?

I have no more other ideas
Sometimes i feel like dieing
But i think of something
I wish that i can just wish that things go better or go back
I am scared
I cant help my family
Yet i just see them suffering

Hope you can understand me



I dont miss you anymore
Yet i miss some other people
I think i have for in love again
But this time is diff
I like the girl is much pretty ,chinese and have lot of talents in lot of things
Hope you have found your lover